Yes I am in Love

life is so strange and mysterious at the same time. when you are happy it silently planned about something and hit you very hard and take away all your happiness.
i am not used to a very emotional person till now but as you know sometimes a presence or absence of someone makes all the difference and change you completely.
i rarely miss anyone besides my family and never go through from any relationships so i don't know how it feel when you care for someone more than yourself.
just now i realize what is this pain and emptiness things in life, and the worst thing you can't tell them about you feeling because what if you hurt them again.
we often lose the person and things we love the most reason just a small unintentional blunders.
today i realize when my mom say   never celebrate early and never feel defeated early.
and i know i am not a looser i will wait silently for you no matter how long it takes.

if there is no madness in love there is no love at all, and i am sure i am in love madly and i don't want anyone in my life except you.
it doesn't mean i will stalk you or irritate you i just wait , now its me V/S destiny and if you are not in my destiny i will fight for what i love and i am sure the power of love can conquer all so destiny is not a big thing.
i screwed up everything so now it's my responsibility to make everything right again.
you once said i am the answer to all your questions and what if we are not talking to each other or what if you are angry with me i promise you i am still answer to all you questions and problem.
i am there with you always unconditionally.
i trust you as i trust god and i am sure one day we will be together again.
now its my time to analyse my mistakes and strengthen my love so when we will be back together nothing can break this beautiful relation. i was feeling very empty and sad from past 20 days, don't know how much sleepless nights were there and today when you gave me another blow i felt like something hurting me deep down in my heart but now i am not feeling all these things. suddenly i am feeling all charged up even now i am studying for my Monday exam too. this is the power f you ,this is the power of love.
i can live in either way with all the pain of past in my heart or with all the happiness of our togetherness in future.
i tried the first option but its awful so i am going with the second one and i am hoping against the hope.
you know miracles happen when you believe in them so now i am not only hoping i am sure sooner or later the miracle will happen in our life too.

there is a good thing about all this i realize now there is someone in world beside my family for whom i can do anything, it may be sound crazy but its me.
the only thing i am regretting is i hurt the one whom i love the most.
you think i never told you about my love in past now suddenly what happen to me.
so let me tell you i never want to tell you about my love because i don't want to hurt you and you deserve someone batter than me in your life but as the things changed now i am feeling i should tell you what i feel about you.
we never met but whenever i think about you or just read your old text again and again they make me smile and cheer me up. i want you to scold me get angry with me but i want you to speak , this silence is the biggest punishment.
without you who will take care of the "Chai ki Dukan" or who will be my partner in book publishing or who will edit my nonsense writings and turn them in beautiful poems.
who will enjoy silly songs with me and who will discuss movies and books with me and who will laugh at me on my spelling mistakes.  you know sometimes love is being stupid together.who will encourage me to write, who will share poetic conversions with me.
 life is so beautiful when you are around and without you its so empty. i am missing the By Default The best person

HAAL CHAL THIK THAK NAHI...
KUCH BHI THIK THAK NAHI...
NO YOU NO LIFE
KNOW YOU KNOW LIFE

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love"

"Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could."

Y.Pareek
29/10/2011