Yes I am in Love

life is so strange and mysterious at the same time. when you are happy it silently planned about something and hit you very hard and take away all your happiness.
i am not used to a very emotional person till now but as you know sometimes a presence or absence of someone makes all the difference and change you completely.
i rarely miss anyone besides my family and never go through from any relationships so i don't know how it feel when you care for someone more than yourself.
just now i realize what is this pain and emptiness things in life, and the worst thing you can't tell them about you feeling because what if you hurt them again.
we often lose the person and things we love the most reason just a small unintentional blunders.
today i realize when my mom say   never celebrate early and never feel defeated early.
and i know i am not a looser i will wait silently for you no matter how long it takes.

if there is no madness in love there is no love at all, and i am sure i am in love madly and i don't want anyone in my life except you.
it doesn't mean i will stalk you or irritate you i just wait , now its me V/S destiny and if you are not in my destiny i will fight for what i love and i am sure the power of love can conquer all so destiny is not a big thing.
i screwed up everything so now it's my responsibility to make everything right again.
you once said i am the answer to all your questions and what if we are not talking to each other or what if you are angry with me i promise you i am still answer to all you questions and problem.
i am there with you always unconditionally.
i trust you as i trust god and i am sure one day we will be together again.
now its my time to analyse my mistakes and strengthen my love so when we will be back together nothing can break this beautiful relation. i was feeling very empty and sad from past 20 days, don't know how much sleepless nights were there and today when you gave me another blow i felt like something hurting me deep down in my heart but now i am not feeling all these things. suddenly i am feeling all charged up even now i am studying for my Monday exam too. this is the power f you ,this is the power of love.
i can live in either way with all the pain of past in my heart or with all the happiness of our togetherness in future.
i tried the first option but its awful so i am going with the second one and i am hoping against the hope.
you know miracles happen when you believe in them so now i am not only hoping i am sure sooner or later the miracle will happen in our life too.

there is a good thing about all this i realize now there is someone in world beside my family for whom i can do anything, it may be sound crazy but its me.
the only thing i am regretting is i hurt the one whom i love the most.
you think i never told you about my love in past now suddenly what happen to me.
so let me tell you i never want to tell you about my love because i don't want to hurt you and you deserve someone batter than me in your life but as the things changed now i am feeling i should tell you what i feel about you.
we never met but whenever i think about you or just read your old text again and again they make me smile and cheer me up. i want you to scold me get angry with me but i want you to speak , this silence is the biggest punishment.
without you who will take care of the "Chai ki Dukan" or who will be my partner in book publishing or who will edit my nonsense writings and turn them in beautiful poems.
who will enjoy silly songs with me and who will discuss movies and books with me and who will laugh at me on my spelling mistakes.  you know sometimes love is being stupid together.who will encourage me to write, who will share poetic conversions with me.
 life is so beautiful when you are around and without you its so empty. i am missing the By Default The best person

HAAL CHAL THIK THAK NAHI...
KUCH BHI THIK THAK NAHI...
NO YOU NO LIFE
KNOW YOU KNOW LIFE

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love"

"Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could."

Y.Pareek
29/10/2011

The Other Side-dark side of society (ii)

Like any other human I use to read news paper in morning, I am talking about newspaper not about the gossip tabloid type things and most of the time I feel disappointed when I read the news. They are mostly about corruption politics or cricket but these type of news just disappoint me I never get angry after reading them. But sometime there is some news which not only makes you angry but also makes you think are we living in a democratic and if not very developed but a developing country with a rich heritage and high on moral  values compare to west ?

On one hand we promote India as a shining country and feel proud on economy, armed forces, politicians continuously speaks about safety and security but as we know all their claims of safety are fake otherwise we never suffer a continuous strings of terror attacks naxel attacks.

I don’t blame anyone for these attacks India is a big country so such attacks are sort of NORMAL things and we are now use to about such events.

Sometimes something so strange so devilish so cruel so brutal happens in our country that you just cannot control your anger such thing happen with me today and it make me think is the old saying is true which state the real India lives in villages?

Its just a small news in mid page of a Hindi news, in muraina district a women burn alive on Chita  not only this before burning her she was hanged twice in front of whole village but as she did not died with hanging they took her down beat her with rods and set her on fire still the poor woman didn’t die than the villagers put her on Chita and burn her and whole village witness this act and nobody came for her rescue not even speak a word. The reason behind this that woman fell in love with a Dalit so the Panchayat sentenced her death and invite the whole village to see this act.

I doubt the people of that village are human? And where is our so called young turk the future of india who love to use villages as food joints or where was the human rights commission. The human rights are there for terrorist and other criminals but in this case they are nowhere to see. We are going to celebrate the festival of light in just two days and is this, the way to celebrate festival of light?

Beside the incident itself the other thing disturb me was how can this be possible not a single person have courage to save her or rise a voice of protest. As the newspaper say before this act they announce the decision in panchayat and decide the date of punishment but no one went and complain to the police. If anyone complain about it in time may be the woman saved or at least the main culprit behind such act caught but nothing like that happened.

I don’t know what honour they feel in honour killing?

And another bad thing we never discuses such incidents we just follow the cool and big things but never take an initiative against such things we paint Facebook and other social networking sites with our post about Anna movement not because we now about what the Janlokpal is but everybody else doing it and we too want to prove we are responsible citizen of India. But we normally ignore the incidents of child abuse, rape and honour killings and believe me its not corruption which make us a developing country its such acts of inhumanity which take us back to the era where there is no law and order and our reaction towards such incidents make us a literate who can read,who can write but who cannot react.

A dog barks when his master is attacked. I would be a coward if I saw that God's truth is attacked and yet would remain silent.
John Calvin 

Just think about it

Y.Pareek

24-10-2011 10:16:27

The Other Side- the dark side of society

Life, more mysterious then any other mystery. Too short still too much to experience,

Always unexpected. You never guess what is coming next in your life. It’s always full with surprises, sometimes good and sometimes shocking.

Except life the most mysterious thing in life is human. You spent whole life to understand someone but at the end of time when you think you understand they show their other side.

Everyone in the world trusts in their family blindly and can do anything for them.

But when you trust them and they betray you trust that was the most shocking thing because you can’t tell anyone not even you can tell what you are experiencing and what is happening with you. At that moment you are with everyone but still all alone. You feel too much broken, you have nobody to tell your feelings, and nobody is there who hold your hand and tell you everything is going to be all right. But we all know it’s very rare to find someone who listens, who cares and who is with us in every condition, unconditionally.

Sometime life play very cruel games with us and we cannot do anything because we did nothing wrong. But it’s very difficult to tell others. Sometime we have fear of losing, sometime we can’t tell them.

When life play games we can’t do anything because it’s may be our destiny but when someone who is very close to us and we consider them as the most caring and loving hurt us. That was the most painful thing in anyone’s life. And the worst condition is that we think we are responsible for that.

People say time heals every wound but when someone hurt your soul, your self respect then…….

Can these wound heal by time, can you bring back some ones life in normal flow if their soul is killed brutally by someone who is like god for them.

I think this is the cruelest crime done by anyone. Even animals never hurt their child can we think any human can did this to their own piece of heart? It’s difficult to believe but we have examples all around us. Everyday we hear, listen or watch news about killing an unborn child, parents sell their children, family member abusing young and innocent children sexually and mentally. We always proud humans are most developed and intelligent species of earth, but I think we are crueler then anything, our minds are nothing but a dirty laboratory of dirty thoughts and deeds. We always pretend to be nice but inside some of us has a devil that destroys meaning of humanity.

I never compare anyone who did this kind of stuff with animal because animals are never be too selfish for their families, its only human who can play with lives for the cost of nothing.

We are not going upward our moral standards are going to downward with the speed of life. Even early man worships mother earth and scared famine character. They knew mother earth who give birth the whole humanity and the women have the power to bring life in this world not the man. But as we know now this is a world dominated by man and women only its dependent not it’s better half as past. We have all rules and regulations and boundaries of do’s and don’ts only for females. They are treated as animals in several places openly and in whole world secretly. Most of us think women as a helpless and dependent and someone who can’t survive without the help of MAN. But I think all man have fear of the power of female.

But it doesn’t mean that only men are responsible for this poor condition of women.

Women also have equal part in this crime. We can count on our fingers the number of females who raise their voices for the thing which happens with them. Some time they think about others, sometime about family society and stay silent. Some how supporting the crime. They think that’s the destiny of women and remain silent. Some of the female pretend to be strong but inside they were not different.

We have to support women but some times they refuse to be supported and live their whole life with a smiling face and a paining heart. Nobody will come to wake you up you have to write your destiny. When anything wrong happen with you do nothing but react and raise your voice. No body is above your self respect and soul. If you or anyone else hurting your soul and self respect and you still thinking about the reaction of society and effect of your step on you family then you are directly insult the god because you are the most precious and powerful creation of god. Don’t think about the results if you are right then god is with you forget about others. If anyone cares for you they are always support you. Don’t fears you also have the right of living your life and if anyone want to spoil it you have the right to do anything but never give up in life. Remember committing crime is bad but bearing the crime silently at cost of your life is the bigger crime. This life is precious and we have right on it more then anyone. I recall some old lines from The Mahabharata

It says “leave a family member for family’s happiness and benefits, leave a home for happiness and benefit of village, leave a village for a city and leave a city for countries’ good, leave a country for happiness of the world and leave anything when it comes to your self-respect and soul leave the whole world for your right because insulting your soul and self respect is direct insult of GOD.

This kind of articles most time written by the females. I’m a man and writing all this is looks strange. But I have questions for all when we worship goddess why we kill our unborn daughters, sexually abuse the young girls of family? Are they only pieces of useless meat or we want to prove our superiority over the one who are helpless or have respect for you? Can we imagine a life without women?

And the last and most important question “Can you survive in A world without women?”

                                                                                                                          Y.Pareek

                                                                                                                          9/01/2008

" I would certainly choose my jobs depending on the actions of the character. I won't do anything that has to do with child abuse or women's abuse"

" No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

-:this one is my first article when i took writing seriously in 2008

डायरी के पन्नो से... जिंदगी से एक मुलाकात

जिंदगी से एक मुलाकात 

आज जब आकाश से अमृत बरस रहा था और मैं अपनी धुन में मस्त चलता हुआ उस अमृत को चख रहा था 

तो देखा के इस रूमानी मौसम में भी कोई आंसू बहा रही थी

पास जाकर पुछा कि कौन हो तुम और क्यों आंसू बहा रही हो ?

तो ज़वाब मिला मैं जिंदगी . मैं हंस पड़ा और बोला आज तक किताबों कहानियों में सिर्फ मौत से मिलने वालों के बारे में पढ़ा था ,पर मैं शायद पहला इन्सान हु जो जिंदगी से मिल रहा हूँ.

इस बात पर जिंदगी भी मुस्कुरा दी . मैंने कहा ये तो तुमने मेरे पहले सवाल का ज़वाब दिया के तुम कौन हो अब ये भी बता दो के जिंदगी होके भी तुम अश्क क्यों बहा रही हो ?

इस पर जिंदगी ज़रा संजीदा होते हुए बोली मैं अपने भीतर पूरी दुनिया समाये हु हंसी ख़ुशी सुख दुःख दर्द आराम अपमान सम्मान सब कुछ फिर भी लोग मुझे कोस कर रोते रहते है

 जब उन्हें कुछ न मिले तो रोते है और जब कुछ मिल जाए तो ज्यादा कि चाह में रोते है और बस जिंदगी को कोसते रहते है 

जीना ही भूल चुके है हँसते है तो लगता है कि खुद पर अहसान कर रहे है ,खुद से झूठ बोलते है , खुद से दूर भागते है बिना कारन मुसीबतें पालते है व्यर्थ परेशान होते है.

खुद को पहाड़ों को तोड़ने का हौसलां रखने वाला बताते है पर झूठे रिश्तों झूठे दिखावे के बन्धनों और अपनी खुशियों के बीच आने वाली बेड़ियों को तोड़कर इस खुले आसमान में उड़ने कि हिम्मत उन में नहीं बची .

मन दुःख और परेशानी जिंदगी का एक हिस्सा है पर कमबख्त लोग उस दुःख और परेशानी को ही जिंदगी बना लेते है . रात को अँधेरा मान कर डरने से अच्छा उसे आने वाली सुबह कि दस्तक समझ के खुश भी तो हो सकते है .

रात कितनी भी कलि क्यों न हो उसमे भी चाँद और तारे होते है इसी तरह दुःख कितना भी बड़ा क्यों न हो छोटी छोटी खुशियाँ जिन्हें हम नज़र अंदाज़ करते है वो उस दुःख को कम करने के लिए काफी है पर ये बात आज के समझदारी के पुतलों को कहाँ समझ आती है बस यही सोच कर मैं रो रही हूँ

कुछ पलों तक सोचने के बाद मैंने कहा जिंदगी जब तुम ही बेरंग होकर अपनी नियति पर आंसू बहती रहोगी तो तुम्हे जीने वाले इंसान कैसे खुश रहेंगे जिंदगी हँसेगी तो ये इन्सान भी हंसेगा बस तुम भी मेरी तरह अपने दुःख परेशानी का मजाक बना उन पर हँसना शुरू करदो तो देखो फिर कौन तुम्हे कोसता है 

बस ज़रा सा मुस्कुराकर देखो और मुस्कुराना रोने से कहीं ज्यादा आसान है क्योंकि हंसने में किसी को ख़ुशी देने में ज्यादा सोचना नहीं पड़ता तभी तो मासूम बच्चे हमेशा मुस्कुराते रहते है बस उसी मासूम बच्चे को दिल के किसी कोने में तमाम उम्र रखो और देख के कैसे हर एक गम उसके सामने छोटा हो जाता है 

मेरी बात सुनकर जिंदगी कुछ नहीं बोली और बादलों में कही खो गयी मुझे लगा के मैं शायद हमेशा कि तरह दिन में सपना देख रहा था पर जब रिमझिम बौछार कि तरफ मैं आकाश में देखा तो एक इन्द्रधनुष था जैसे कोई मुस्कुरा रहा हो उस मुस्कुराते इन्द्रधनुष को देख मेरे चेहरे पे भी मुस्कान तैर गयी और मुझे यकीन हो गया के ये सपना नहीं था 

मैं फिर एक बार अपनी धुन में गुनगुनाता हुआ मुस्कुराता हुआ चल पड़ा और अब मेरे साथ जिंदगी भी मुस्कुरा रही थी  

21 -5 -2008  

क्या बुद्धिजीवी होना या ना होना परिवार पर निर्भर करता है ?

क्या एक इंसान जो अभाव में जन्मा  हो वो बुद्धिजीवी नहीं हो सकता ?

इस प्रश्न का उत्तर जानने से पहले ये जानना ज़रूरी है के बुद्धिजीवी और छदम बुद्धिजीवी में क्या अंतर है .

आज का युग छदम बुद्धिजीवियों का है सिर्फ बातों से रिझाना बिना विषय की जानकारी के भी अनर्गल बोलना और सामने वाले को बताना के देखो तुम सब कुछ जान कर भी कुछ नहीं जानते और हम बिना कुछ जाने भी प्रसिद्द है .

इस प्रकार के बुद्धिजीवी इस इन्टरनेट युग की दें है जहाँ आप कुछ भी जानना चाहो वो आप को चुटकी बजाते ही मिल जाता है .

आज आपको हर कोई ज्ञान की गंगा बहाता दिख जाएगा. ज्ञान देने में या बुद्धिजीवी होने में कोई बुराई नहीं है मैं जानता हु कहना गलत नहीं है पर मैं ही जानता हु कहना गलत है.

और ये बात कभी कभी मुझ पर भी लागु होती है पर मुझे अपनी गलती मानने में कोई बुराई नहीं दिखती 

तो पहले बात करते है के बुद्धिजीवी कौन है या साधारण शब्दों में समझदार कौन है ?

अब समझदारी या ज्ञान के लिए कोई पैमाना नहीं है ये सब आस पास के वातावरण पर निर्भर करता है 

जैसे की एक मल्लाह से पूछो के उसे गणित के महान विद्वान आर्यभट या लाप्लास के बारे में पता है ?

या उसे गति के नियमो के बारे में कुछ पता है ? वो ना में सर हिला देगा और उसी क्षण हम उसे मूर्ख या अज्ञानी समझ लेंगे. अब ज़रा सोचो बीच नदी में वो ही मल्लाह हमें पूछे के क्या हमें तेज़ लहरों में से नाव पार लगाना या तैरना आता है ? और यदि हम ना में ज़वाब देंगे तो उसी पल हम उसके लिए मूर्ख या नाकारा साबित हो गए .

तो अब इस परिस्थिति में ये कैसे नतीजा निकले के कौन समझदार है और कौन मूर्ख ?

मेरे विचार से इस संसार में ना कोई सबसे समझदार है ना कोई सबसे मूर्ख 

हो सकता है हमारी रुचि के क्षेत्र में हमें बहुत ज्ञान हो और जिस क्षेत्र में रुचि नहीं उसमे हम निरे मूर्ख हो 

हर इंसान की एक परिधि है जिसके अन्दर वो ज्ञानी है और जिसके बाहर वो मूर्ख है जो इन्सान इस बात को मानता है वो ही बुद्धिजीवी है और जो इंसान इस बात को जानकार भी अनजान बन खुद को बुद्धिजीवी कहता है वो छदम बुद्धिजीवी है .

एक इंसान भाषा ज्ञान में उत्त्कृष्ट है तो दूसरा राजनीति या समयकी में 

एक गणित में तेज़ है तो दूसरा साहित्य में जिस प्रकार उनकी  रूचि के विषय अलग अलग होते है उसी प्रकार उनकी समझदारी और बुद्धिजीविता के मापदंड .

अब आते है उस बात पर जिस की भूमिका बांधने में ही इतने शब्द लग गए  

तो इस बारे में लिखने का विचार मुझे कल आया जब मैं किसी का लिखा कुछ पढ़ रहा था 

जो भी लिखा था वो उनका अपना दृष्टिकोण था बस मैं उस विचार से असहमत था तो मैंने अपना मत लिखने का सोचा ,

उन्होंने लिखा था के मेरी विचारिक उपलब्धि मेरी समझदारी का कारण परिवार है  इस बात से तो मैं भी सहमत हु पर आगे जो बात मुझे खटकी वो थी की इन्सान समझदार या बुद्धिजीवी तभी हो सकता है जब वो उच्च  कुल या अत्यधिक ज्ञानवान माता पिता की संतान हो . मेरे हिसाब से ये गलत है यदि आज के ज़माने के छदम बुद्धिजीवियों को छोड़ दे तो जो भी विलक्षण प्रतिभाशाली बुद्धिजीवी हुए है जिन्होंने अपने विचारों या अपने कार्यो से ना केवल अपना बल्कि संसार का नाम ऊपर किया है 

 Steve Jobs , sir Issac Newton , Leo da vinci, Albert Einstine , Walt Disney, Charles Spencer Chaplin, pt. Shri Ram Sharma Acharya, Mahatma Gandhi, Anna Hazare , shri Hariwansh Rai Bachhan , shri Hedgewar,

APJ Abdul Kalam,Ramanujan ये सब आज भी सर्वकालिक महान और विद्वान बुद्धिजीवियों की श्रेणी में आते है और इस बात के साथ इनमे एक समानता और भी है ये सभी माध्यम या अभावग्रस्त परिवारों से थे ,

इनमे से कुछ को तो विधिवत शिक्षा भी नहीं मिली थी पर फिर भी इन्होने स्वयं को साबित किया और याद रहे इनके युग में इन्टरनेट भी नहीं था  

   इन सभी ने अभाव होते हुए भी अपनी विद्वता श्रेष्टता दिखाई और इनके माता पिता इनकी तुलना में अत्यंत ही साधारण थे .

अगर मेरे उन विद्वान मित्र का मत माने तो इन्हें भी अत्यंत साधारण होना चाहिए था पर नहीं ये तो असाधारण बने कारण इनमे ललक थी इनमे जूनून था कुछ करने का और ज्ञान और बुद्धि को बढ़ने के लिए किसी gene की ज़रूरत नहीं होती बस उसके लिए तो सपने और उन्हें पूरा करने का जुनून और लगन ही काफी है .

और शायद ये सुनने में बुरा लगे पर रेस  जीतने वाले घोड़े का भी बच्चा ज़रूरी नहीं रेस जीतने वाला ही पैदा हो 

तो इंसानों में ये कैसे मुमकिन है हम बस सुविधाए दे सकते है जुनून या लगन नहीं तभी तो कितनी बार देखने को मिलता है कोचिंग में हजारों लाखो खर्च कर के भी IIM IIT ya IAS नहीं निकाल सकते और एक अत्यंत गरीब अनपढ़ किसान या रिक्शा चलाने वाले की संतान पुरानी किताबो के सहारे भी सफल हो जाता है 

इश्वर कभी कभी किसी को माता पिता देने में पक्षपात भले ही कर दे पर वो कभी किसी को बुद्धि देने में पक्षपात नहीं करता 

इसी के साथ विदा

 जय जय 

:-ये बस विचार है इसका उद्देश्य किसी व्यक्ति विशेष को ठेस पहुचाना नहीं है 

 उत्कृष्ट जीवन का स्वरुप हैं - दूसरों के प्रति नम्र और अपने प्रति कठोर-श्री राम शर्मा आचार्य 

यदि शांति पाना चाहते हो , तो लोकप्रियता से बचो। — अब्राहम लिंकन

छोटी सी लाइफ बड़ी सी दुनिया

छोटी सी लाइफ, बड़ी  सी दुनिया 

हर शक्ल हर सूरत हर एक चीज़ कह रही कहानियां .

अज़ब है खेल ,बजती है सीटियाँ 

हसीनो को बचने को कहता खुद सांवरियां .

लैम्प पोस्ट में लैम्प नहीं 

घर नहीं तो रिफ्यूजी कैम्प सही

फेस बुक में दुनिया है 

पर असल जिंदगी में कोई दोस्त नहीं 

जीते जी जो करते थे कभी सामने तो कभी पीछे से वार 

आज हम मरें तो सबसे आगे खड़े आंसू बहा रहे 

हाथ में लिए चन्दन  के हार

जो फांकते थे धुल ,घुमते थे टूटी चप्पल में 

आज हर दिन बदल रहे कार पे कार 

जिनकी नहीं कोई दरकार 

बैठ कुर्सी पर वो आज चला रहे सरकार 

दौड़ाने दो मासूमो को इनके सपनो के घोड़े 

क्यों अपन इच्छा थोप बिछाते राह में रोड़े.

सुन कर मेरे ऐसे बोल 

एक सुर में समाज के ठेकेदारों ने दिया मोर्चा खोल 

सच क्यूँ बोला 

मूह क्यूँ खोला ?

कोई इस पागल का प्रबंध करो 

और इसका बड़ा मुंह  बंद करो

भीड़ पने और आती देख भी 

हाउ यूँही डटे रहे 

पर एक बार फिर इस झूठी दुनिया में 

सच के साथ मेरे कपडे भी फट गए 

its very simple to be happy but its really difficult to be simple     

Missing the Innocent Ignorance

I love writing but i love it more when i am in bad mood and these days i am in super bad mood.
in almost 15 days i have my annual exam so as usual after watching a movie i started study.
after 2-3 hours i felt tired and start surfing some random blogs and go through a blog which is actually some diary kind of blog. a daily diary and it have some really small but full with life moments that make me realize i have my old diaries too. almost 8-9 diaries, i quit writing diaries after 2008 when my first laptop and my first uncompleted book stolen.
after that i start writing poetry, articles and developed some new style of writing but never tried to write daily diary again.
now when i read that diary type blog i take out my diaries from my closet and start reading it. it was a great fun seems like all the things running like a cinema reel in front of me. all the good and bad memories when i was in class 10 and first time try my hand in writing. i start sharing my stuff after almost 10 years in 2008. so the idea to write my diary all over again strikes me.
the innocent life of a school going boy, a story of unspoken love, a world without cell phone, laptop but full with real friends. when the day pass with playing cricket and talking about football or video game.
when we eagerly wait to go to the tuition so that we can see some girls ,otherwise as a student of a boys school girls and dinosaur both are equal for us.
the race on cycle ,playing antakshari when power cut. no demands for branded clothes or hi tech gadgets.
i still miss the innocent ignorance. now i have cellphone laptop all the latest gadgets but now everything become fake in virtual world and it's really difficult for a non materialistic and old fashioned person like me to cope with this fast moving world . where i have days without speaking a word where i have no one to share but i am not complaining i am happy in my own world. where i can talk to stars nature books in short i am in a relationship with life.

Things things things why everyone talks about things i hate everything
from Into the wild

The W Generation

The W generation

A writer who want to change everything, a politician who wants to be prime minister, small city boys and girls want to be someone like their Hollywood counterpart, young boys and girls want to be celebrities at any cost.

Use of slang and booze and dope makes you cool instantly welcome to the W generation. This W is not for Why this W is for Wannabe. Have a look around you everyone wants to be somebody or show they are somebody else. Every generation is a rebel according to their previous generation. But in case of our generation we are no more rebels anymore it hard to digest but all of us are wannabes in one or other aspect.

It’s true for one and all and if you seriously observe world as well as yourself you will know.

Let’s see some real life scenarios a girl or a boy from a small town come for study in big city and in a few days there is a drastic change in her. Not only the way she or he walk, talk or dressed they even felt shame on mentioning that they belong from some small town.

The other scene a room full with some boys who love music, a big Curt Cobain poster is hanging with a big Jimi Hendrix cut out and everybody in room wearing tee shirts with prints of Iron Maiden, Metallica or Floyd and playing music. Nothing seems bad in it but after an hour’s playing and still not able to get the feel they want a joint or one or two shots to get the spirit high. This is where the wannabe thing comes. They know they are not that much exhausted but they want to be like their idols so they want to do everything what their idols did in past. their idols use dope as a solace from life because they are fed up with this limelight they are not happy from inside and they are lonely, but these fellows are not facing such conditions they just want to use dope to be cool or rather is spell Kool with a K. They are just wanted to be like them so they do these wannabe things.

 Another one and many of us have seen this many times a group of girls and boys hanging around and suddenly a girl spit out a MA BEHAN KI GALI and everyone stare at her and she casually said “are yaar DELHI BELLY dekhne ke baad bhi aise kya dekh rahe ho it’s the in thing” strange isn’t it, but she wants to be KOOL again if she say don’t speak such language than people make fun of her and she will not be considered as kool any more.

Even i think sometime i am a wannabe writer or director but thank god i never follow the footsteps of my idols in wrong direction. But somewhere i cannot deny the fact yes I am a wannabe too.

These are some small example but no difference in this wannabe behaviour in bigger aspects like cinema, politics and all other thing.

Again it looks like I can see some eyebrows are rising. That is the problem you have to explain or justify each and everything.

So look at this example a wannabe prime minister from the so called first family from India eat at every home which is considered as a downtrodden or poor men’s house so he may become the messiah of them and eventually the PM of India. Sometimes I feel strange how come eating at someone’s house or breaking the security can change the life of people. And if he like this way why do not lead such lifestyle.

Now let’s go to the entertainment industry not on big level on just a small level. In the time of reality TV we often see young people from nice family comes to participate and in few hour we see them fighting for limelight and if you ask them why you do such things? Their answer is I want to prove myself. Is this the way to prove you? If you want to prove yourself do some good not for society but at least for you. But know that straight forward way does not give them opportunity to come in limelight, even if the limelight is for some flash of time. They prove themselves by using slang, backstabbing others.

Irony of this thing is if someone points a finger at these wannabes they said look he is the wannabe Gandhi or Bhagat Singh.

So be or not to be I don’t know but always be a wannabe.

-Yogesh Pareek

17-10-2011 01:26:05